Preceded by Open Hearts, Open Plains
Not so long ago, I thought my beautiful boy might be lost to us, to himself. I hoped that this visit to the high plains desert might bring back to me the sweet boy that I knew. But I did not see that boy at all; I saw instead a maturing young man. He is quietly confident, speaking in metaphor of his new outlook on life and himself, showing an astonishing self-awareness and wholeness. He is growing into leadership and goal-setting for the first time in his life, and it is a wonder to witness. I thank God for allowing me to see this transformation.
Ben is not the only one to change in this past weekend; Abe and I have been challenged to examine our roles within our family and within our relationship, to balance our gifts and be aware of when it is time for one to step up and the other to step back, working as a team. This will take a conscious effort for both of us, and we are eager to have it happen. The dynamics of our personal relationship will benefit and our family’s connection will strengthen as a result.
This is a cathartic moment in the life of our family, one upon which we will look back and with a few key words remember. This is the stuff of life for which we all long; but note that it came at great cost, figuratively and literally, shared in part by loving people in our lives who have supported us. What would happen if we could accept the need for this kind of growth without the cost? Would we seek it as fervently? History and experience tells me that it is rare to grow without a painful catalyst. That makes us human, I suppose.
But allow me to encourage those who need help in any form to seek it quickly, vigorously, and to persevere. Those in our close network extended their support and shared their knowledge, and because of that we found shortcuts we would never have known. It was complete strangers who ultimately led us to this solution for our family, and our network of support has expanded exponentially. Reach openly for whatever help you need; you might be astounded at the number of people who want to help and do. I feel that I and my family are recipients of amazing grace from many sources. I am indebted to all and will do everything in my power to pay it forward.
In upcoming days I will post about our experience; meanwhile, please accept my humble thanks for your supportive comments and prayers.
The photo is sunset of our first day in the desert.
Next: Day One